Baseball

My son is going for tryouts today! I am so excited! Yeah he is only 7 but he is so good and I can't help but get overly excited about him catching and batting. I hope to get a nice camera soon so I can take some great action photos. He got a new glove and cleats last night and he was so cute trying not to smile while he was trying them on.

HOWEVER... before we could make it out to the ballfield, I heard Cole crying for me, I ran outside to find that during his practice outside before we went to tryouts, his friend had thrown the ball, missed by Cole's hand but caught by his eye. We still made it tryouts. He did great... with limited vision....

Putting up border patrol!

That's right! I am setting up my border patrol today! There has been an attack recently on me and I just can not take any negative comments or actions against me... I am just too precious! My ex husband has for years now been throwing out the same mumbo-jumbo lies to try and attack me, get me to scream back and all around upset me. I am done. I will not lower myself to answer his silly letters or emails and I will not pretend to be friends with him when I have to be around him. I remove myself from the line of fire. My men are standing guard and they are heavily armed so watch out you pieces of feces that try your psychological mumbo-jumbo on me.... it will not work. I got nothing for ya.

Forbear

Word for the day... forbear. The dictionary definition: to hold oneself back from especially with an effort, to control oneself when provoked : be patient.

With this word I hope to remember it in the times when I am feeling the urge to knock my ex husband over the head, I hope to remember this word when I seek out to do something that may momentarily offer a piece of solice but will indeed bring on much more pain later. I think we become stronger individuals when we forbear situations that offer only temporary relief. One of my favorite quotes: withholing in one moment of anger will save you 100 days worth of grief.

mercy

My word that I sought meaning from today was "Mercy". I drew a blank on some deep rooted definition that could arouse any emotion and create some profound meaning. Later in the day... my husband pissed me off. I told myself repeatedly to have mercy... that just made me madder because I couldn't think of actually what that meant. Tonight we were watching a t.v. show and the guy was saying that he was screwed up... a really screwed up person but that woman sitting next to him agreed that he was screwed up but said she would give him another chance. I was like.... AHHH HA! That's mercy! Being mad but forgiving anyway, looking beyond the mistake to the person.

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This has to be the most elegant picture I have seen of the couple!

Breast augmentation

I had breast augmentation surgery about 2 years ago. Unfortunate for me I did not follow the dr's advice to stay in bed and rest. I had a 1 yr old daughter and I felt that I had to pick her up which resulted in one of my stitches busting, a hole and I had to go back in for surgery. If you choose to have this surgery DO NOT pick anything up or you will pay for it! My surgery was successful and I didn't have any problems other than the ones I created for myself. I wanted the surgery because I had three children and my boobs, although a c cup were droopy and unattractive to me. I got them lifted and enhanced a bit.

I love the way my breast looks in clothing now and I often look at myself in pictures and think "wow! great boobs" but would I do it again? good question... I don't know. Should a perfectly healthy person go under the knife for such a vain reason? The guy that put me under made the the comment that he didn't see why healthy people did this to themselves.

I also paid 6 grand on my boobs. That is a lot of money! There are better uses for that money. In the future I may get injections for wrinkles or minor things done but no more major surgeries just to boost my ego... therapy was created for that!

President Barack Obama..stop the crying

Really people.... tears? Why are we acting like a prophet is walking the earth? I turn on the t.v. and see people crying and overjoyed about our new President. It is terrific that we have a black President and I am happy that we are seeing people for who they are but to put a president up on the pedelstal like the press has been doing is a bit much. We need to get a grip on our emotions! Rush Limbaugh mentioned that after he speaks it is like Obama rises up in a cloud and disapears and this is true. We are acting too ga-ga over him!

I want him to succeed and I do admire him tremdously. His family is so beautiful and I admire how Michelle is showing that she is the mother of her children and she makes the decisions.

I just can't take people crying and hanging posters of him all over their house and thinking he can do no wrong. He is human

Reach!

I do a odd thing... I open a dictionary and blindly point to a word and then look at that word and think about it applies to my life. The word I discovered yesterday was "REACH". Some of the thoughts that came after reading that word was "what am I reaching for?" or "How far am I will to reach?".



I am reaching for a degree and I am currently taking classes online. I get discouraged because it is taking so long and I can't see the finish line but I will continue to REACH for the end... for the goal.



I reach to be a better person, a better mother.. we are always reaching out... WHAT ARE YOU REACHING FOR?

Reading; a new beginning

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This is a new beginning for me.... seeing my child pick up a book. This is the beginning of him opening his eyes and his imagination to the things of this world that could seem out of reach or things that has yet to dream of.

This is my son reading at the bookstore. I love to read and I hope this is something I can pass along to them. I hope that when I am old and I die that when they sit down and read a book they will feel close to me. I hope I can give them the gift of loving to read because it can really enhance who they are. It can show them how big the world is and they can see that there are so many ideas and different view points out in the world that they may not have even considered. It can be an escape sometimes.

I am reading a book now "The secret life of bees" and it takes me to a time where black people were disgraced and a little girl lost her mother. How else would I be able to live in a time where black people where not treated as human. It helps me to better understand what is going on now with the presidential campaign and understand why so many people are crying and happy about having a black president.

I take them to the library and we wander through rows after rows of the authors thoughts and it is such a visual feast for me. to see so many ideas bound up and sitting there waiting for me to journey with them.

Butterflys

When I saw this picture I saved it. I look at every butterfly differently since my granny passed away. She use to get dead butterflys and pin them on flower fabric and fram them. How neat is that? I remember at first when I saw this as a kid I thought it was kinda strange and she never told me why she did this, maybe just because they were pretty. I think it is a beautiful thing to do because it is God's creation and instead of framing something that a person drew, she framed God's work. I wonder where she got the butterflys? I never see dead butterflys laying around at my house. When you think about it, she had to be a pretty artsy person to do this. Finds beaty in life and everything around her. I think I need to plant a ton of flowers outside my house to draw the butterflys and then I can go and sit outside with my Granny who I was named after. I miss her, I still dream about her every now and again... it is coming up on the anniversay of her death and I gues maybe there is something in my brain that brings me to this time of thinking about her.

safehouse coffee and tea

I love this place! It is a coffee and tea shop in Georgia where you walk in and you feel at home since you can come in carrying any weight and drop it at the door. The owners of this safe haven are out to help people with drug and alchol addictions... Well you don't have to have an addiction to get the coffee and tea but the proceeds from this business goes to help those that need help. I love the feeling that I get when I walk in that I am wanted for who I am and I am not judged by what I am wearing or the car that I drive or what I own. They truelly want to KNOW the person that comes in the door. I took my daughter and my friends daughter to this place yesterday and they were so excited. They said it was peaceful. I believe that kids have a wonderful way of truelly seeing someting for what it is without any prompt or guidance from adults and they felt the presence of the place. We each got our tea, sat down and played some games then went upstairs to play ping pong. It is such a mellow place and gives me hope for the world.

Hawaii too

I have a rough life... this is me at the Sheraton in Hawaii. The hotel lobby is out in the open, valet parking, boys bringing me fruity drinks... I could get use to this!
and look at that hat! I never wear this hat much because it is big but doesn't it just scream "I am on vacation!"

Hawaii

how amazing this was!













I actually made it to Hawaii!! We stayed at the Sheritan and the lawn was perfectly manicured, a band was down to the right of the picture so when we came back to our hotel the band was playing nice fun music and the breeze was coming off the ocean. They had the lights shining into the water so we could sit on our balcony and watch the manta rays. I was in paradise! One night we went down to the bar (right side of the picture) and sipped mi ties (fruity drink with a flower in it) and watched the sun set. Hawaii offers so many different experiences between feeling like you are out in the middle of no where (another island) to this perfectly orchastrated paradise! My mind was really transformed when I was in Hawaii... no worries!